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I can do it

I can’t live this life. I know I was not born on this earth to live this ordinary life . At such a young age I’ve realized I don’t think like most people and i’m much brighter, I have more will to do something if I put my mind to it then anyone I’ve ever met. No one wants to life this type of lavish life style more then me ! But I just don’t know how to get a that point of success or how to find that thing I can grab and run with . Essentially how do I make allot of money!

IDK

I Feel like i’m way to mature for my classmates at school. They don’t make me laugh, the immature jokes aren’t funny, the stupid drama is pointless. It’s not even like I never had friends or no one liked me everyone payed attention to me… I hated it.

After my car accident I was out of school for a while, fell into a deep hole of work and depression that I could never seem to get out of. I never attended a full day at my high school again, I now no longer talk to anyone besides my girlfriend, by choice, and am living a very happy life with a very beautiful girl.

Terrible Dab Experience

About 2 years ago, i was staying at my sisters house, we had never smoked together prior to this. About 9am i woke up, hadn’t eaten didn’t even brush my teeth, and i go to the living room. My Sisters friend was there and had a rig and some ak47 wax. I turned on my ps3 and played Flatbush Zombies – When in Roam.Then He took a big hit, then my sister, and lastly me. Since it was my first time even using a rig i decided on taking the biggest hit i could. I immediately started coughing and choking. My sister got me a glass of water, i took a sip and then i feel cold on my side. Once i look down i see i had dropped the glass all over myself. I think i was so out of it i didn’t change. My eyes feel heavy and as if i was blinking rapidly. The feeling i felt all over was when you first smoke weed and you’re thinking to yourself why did you do this and ask god to help you. For about 10 minutes i contemplated killing myself because the visuals i had were horrible. I looked at my sister and she seemed like she was 2-D like a flat piece of paper. After that she was moving So fast and i couldn’t understand one word she was saying. I got up to try and walk it off but once i took my first step i was stumbling. I thought i would be ok if i slept it off BUT THAT WAS THE WORST THING I COULD EVER DO.Sleeping:It was pitch black i saw cogs turning and breaking off into an infinite loop then my mind was racing down a road with palm trees and each tree had a name of a family member or friend. I was trying to remember who i was once i heard myself say my name i instantly woke up.I felt like i was born again into a new person, I look around the room and said “why does this place look so familiar”. I honestly Felt like i died when i was asleep.I went to the bathroom to look into the mirror then to my sister and again to bed, I was looping. I felt like i was in hell. This happened for about 5 minutes until i told my sister that i couldn’t stop looping but she didn’t understand what i was saying. Towards the end of the high i think it was about 2pm, my sister was in the kitchen making food. when she was walking back and forth i could see her body in one spot like a time lapse. I Felt better once i ate but After that now my whole perspective is different.After that for about a year every time i smoked i would trip out and my whole body would feel numb and as if i was one with anything i touched, Almost like i was sinking into a seat or my bed.